Wнєη I cαllєd fσя нєℓρ,nσt dυє tσ ємσ, вυт YES I'м SERIOUS ✞

[End of February] Stories begin when I had decided to go my ways and didn't pray and ask God before I made certain decision and in fact,I continuously made A FEW choices or I'd call it a mistake.So on and so forth..............

Soon,I came to realize everything I do,actually the goal isn't glorifying God at all because I asked God for wisdom for things many people yet to know,so I could be top ALWAYS.(Obviously its wrong purpose). Eventually many things I'm doing seemed so tough and I stumbled and was like GG.com. Failures and fails lead me to an edge. I cried many times,all these while I mean.Yea,when the moment you people receive my text means I am really not OKAY :(  All my pride has lead me to an end.Regrets filled me.

On that time,I was kinda mad with God.Asking God,WHY?! WHY?! and bli bli bla bla. Sigh,what an ugly display of egoistic isn't it. I was being pretty stubborn,until something really hit me and wake me up from devoted with fame and achievements.(Somehow yes) .(The balls bounces and rolled message). I was fearing that school teacher will never value me like before after I lost my competition and they'd be pretty disappointed because of my IMPERFECT performance. I chose to hide at home and avoid friends and teachers in school.I even think of doing foolish stuff AGAIN (thank GOD I did not!!) Trying to get rid of all these. I couldn't bear the hardship myself.

YES,but things are made cleared when I chose return and surrender.Still small voice,whispers to my heart says," ups and downs I've gone through will someday be a testimony." I was like,"WHAT?! Must be some kind of JOKE in my life!But this joke ain't funny at all !"  No,it wasn't.It has been clarified. Trials and testings are inevitable.His grace is sufficient.Life is pretty unfair but GOD IS GOOD.Things on earth will fade but FAITH HOPE LOVE and His words shall remain and endures forever! Smiles. Let God be the center of our life,serious speaking.What I have to emphasize is GOD' s love really conquers everything! He is GOOD!!!

PS: Thankieu sisters-sisters and brothers-brothers who encourages me and pulled me up,and I do hope I don't trouble you people,=D