Chorus Of My Story.

This is not some whining and self - pitying, like some teenage-tragedy song , for your information . 
The story begins on a controlled, chilly, beautiful, like a hillside spring on a March afternoon 2010 . 

I knew him approximately about two years . Decades ago , the only impression he gave me was --- mischief , talkative , a little shy and blushed when talking to a strange lady like me . His behavior was slightly wayward , I thought .  Perhaps I was wrong. 
After he stepped in college and studied a course that is truly new to him , eventually I see him transform , well in a good way of course . Months passed by and I started to fall for this guy . We shared the same height . We played Maple Story . The first thesis we talked and shared was this game . Ridiculous . I met him quite frequent in church . 
On the church camp , to me it was an privilege , because I get to play football and talked a lot to this guy . 
A week later , rumors spread and circulated throughout Ignite Youths . Some exaggerated false of the truth . Of course , who doesn't get hurt and pissed when such things haunt you ? It turned my life from the inside out , cried and downed for weeks . Yet , I chose to forgave , just for one reason , I shouldn't hate you . 
As times passed , I steadily let go and moved on , not to brood over those words . There are many prayers I told God , and He indeed answered all my wishes and prayers . 
I remember there was once , church held the Asian Savor Dance Troop . We were late . I whispered to God in my car , " God , please , let me sit somewhere I could see him . "  We managed to get a few seats behind though . I stunned ! It was him him sitting a few row ahead of me hey! We had a joyous holiday . during camp , Christmas Presentation =)  We took a lot of pictures . 
Turning in to January . A sudden cold towards me . I bore until March . Finally , I took out my guts I stored for months , asked him to my birthday bash , a buffet lunch in Little Cottage . After church , he drove me there . We had limited subject to discuss on that time . He befriended Tim , his senior of Interior Designing . Maybe he should thank me ? I started to ask him out for jog every week . We truly were very close on that particular time . he told me everything . Unfortunately , perfect events is not everlasting . After conference , we seldom talk . Now he's in my dance . Other than that , I don't think we talk . Isn't saddening  ? 

Honestly speaking , I love him for 17 months . So what ? It's over . It's not unconditional love but grown desolate . 
We never been in a relationship , I haven't been that far . 
I now could flash an artificial and saccharine smile and say , in the end , it's over . I conquered periodic setbacks and moved on to a whole new level by saying goodbye and lay down all these weigh that once bounded me. 
=)