Zone Out

It's awful. It's dreary. Sometimes, you stumbled upon these grey vibes. letting the weight of emotions held you down. Unknowingly. Tears express on its behalf when words are paled. Nothing soothes better than that of tranquility. 

more likely than not, snaps --- random yet familiar scenes flashes through your head; throwback comes knocking in the middle of nowhere, out of the blue, uninvited down the memory lane disturbingly. sometimes beautiful, sometimes unpleasant.


you, too, drowned yourself in the vast opinions of others. reality slams you harder. some favorable, some are plain bullshits. you didn't like it at all. you felt disconnected & somewhat alienated from these people who claim themselves to be bold, brazen & outstanding, as they stretch out the fabric of hypocrisy & drape it all over your spaces of hopeful idealism. you vacillate between acceptance & anger; friendship & enmity. it tempts you to overwhelming doubts. plummeting trusts. consequently, you are against yourself viscerally.

nonetheless, you have to lift your head above the clouds no matter what. you don't always encounter a good samaritan every part down the journey. recon one thing : twas' just another part, another phase of progressive growing. you know you are capable of constructing your own reality. you do not have to give in, blend in, buy what they opined, jump onto their bandwagon. you don't have to subscribe to the world's ideas of "hows and whys". you listen to your good shepherd in the higher realm. why bother wiping out? rightful or crooked, afterall, who's having a bigger say in your future?